I speak from experiance here
I met a woman online, A woman who captured my heart. Who told me that she and I would start out on a road trip together. She would drive, she would control the speed. I would navigate. I was given a map. Told that at some point in time there would be phone calls, once she got comfortable with the idea. Told that if that went well, there would be plans made to make a visit.
I was given the wrong map. the map Iwas given was to those phone calls and that visit. Where as the real map led to well no where really. And so I discovered after the fact that this person only wanted a online relationship, nothing else, nothing more.
But here I was, like an idiot navigating based on the map I was give. And here she was pretending the map I had was the Right map I'd make a Suggestion, and she'd agree, when if fact she had no intention of making that turn. And when the time came to make that turn, something came up. for some reason we didn't make that turn. And we'd fight. I would be made to feel I was at fault for wanting to make that turn, when I had been led to believe that the turn was possible.
But I prevailed. I still loved her. I forgave the broken promise, and I continued to give her my heart.
And then came the point where I was asked to step out of the Car. someone else was going to be given the map. And I was asked to Step out. This person was also given a wrong Map, and the woman in question did nothing but Take a rope tie it to the bumper of the figuitive car, and Tie the other end to my heart. And after a while, after this person made all the Wrong turns the False map guided them to. HE was asked to Step out and I was asked to Step back in. And like a fool I did.
And again I was given the wrong map. and again I navigated based on this false information.
SO again someone else was Asked to take my place in the car. I don't know what map he was given, but I can only guess that he was given the wrong map. Because now anew man has been asked to sit in the car
And Supposedly he's been given the correct map.
And what I find funny is he has already told me "I can fix her" meaning he can "Fix her to where she will use the Call and Visit Map" .. but he's convinced her that "No I'll use the no call no visit map"
Funny thing about all of this. I still love her. I still hurt. I still want to call her my girl. But thats not my call to make now is it .
I do know this. All I am to her is a Saftey net. And Each time she gets hurt, each time someone else makes the Wrong turns they were told they could make, she comes back to me.
I'm just not sure I can go through it again
I'm not sure I can be there this time
So to answer the question yes I have fallen in love with a woman I've never met, who I've only seen one picture of, and who's voice I have never heard
And My heart has suffered more from this, than any Real relationship I have ever been in.
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