When ideas go stale (Please Read)

Hey guys, this is going to sound as cringe as fudge, but I do apologize in advance. I just wanted to clear the air and state that Amazonian does not reflect who I am as a person. For those that know me, you know I am nothing like her. I am actually one step away from classifying the character as a failure because I feel like I'm not doing a good job at telling her story. I feel like I'm upsetting a lot of you more than I am entertaining you, and that's a big no no for me. Now I know the stuff on Writing Confessions might not relate to me, but seeing as how VEN is declaring she's the greatest, I need to be sure. Keep in mind, I struggle with insecurity and anxiety. I don't want your pity or anything like that, I just want people to know who I am as a person.

I look up to a lot of you, to name a few: Feral Nova, Sha, Grimmwald, Juno, Mister Surreal, LL, and Rosso. There are more, but you guys get the point. I just want to be cool with everyone, even though that could be impossible sometimes. I've never had a problem with anyone since I've been around and I want to keep that record.

Anyway, I reached out to Grimmwald, because he's like an older brother to me and a mentor. Now this is something that I have told him once before and a few others plenty of times. I am NOT as comfortable with fighting other writers yet, and I won't be comfortable with it anytime soon. Why? Because believe it or not, I just started fighting people. Shield-Maiden Vs the Justice League Alliance was my first battle, and from I heard I did pretty well.

I am still learning and growing, so I do apologize if I didn't do as well. I am only repeating what others have told me, so I'm open to correction. So yeah, I've been around since 08 and never had a battle until RECENTLY. Back then, I was just a young teenager who just wanted to join in and explore my passion. Believe it or not, I had to teach myself how to roleplay because I joined extremely young and no one wanted to tolerate a middle schooler going by the account name "Charge Up." So all that time I was around, I was learning how to just tell stories. I never gave myself the chance to figure out how other stuff worked, and it pretty much bit me in the booty.

So why am I telling you all this? Because I don't want people letting what Ven says get in their head. I made her purposely to be this messed up young girl, it's part of the story that I am telling to entertain you guys. I promise when I am done with her, you guys will love her. But yeah she's not the greatest person ever, because I am certainly not the greatest person ever. I don't believe ANY of the bull she spews from her mouth. With that being said, the reason I have Ven physically strong is because she's a divine being who has a crazy bloodline (Catalina, Shield-Maiden, and a mysterious God on Olympus), not because I want to make her powerful to be the best of the best.

I could care less if Ven was powerful or not, because I'm more of a story-teller. I am only now getting into the fighting arena, so my motivation for having Amazonian strong has nothing to do with being the best. To prove my point, Shield-Maiden has declared in canon that even a mortal could defeat a divine being with their intelligence alone. I said that to remind certain people to stop underestimating others, unless your CHARACTER is known to be arrogant and overconfident.

A lot of people personally have an ego on here, but for those that know me, you know I don't care about self-glory or any of that stuff. I gif war to play around, not because I want you to take what I say literally. According to Grimm, Ven is feared at the Academy right now. He wanted to use her as an example to show certain people that even the strongest of characters could be defeated. I think that's a great idea, because I personally think certain people are getting out of control with their need to be the most powerful character in the forums. To clarify though, Ven seems to be feared in politics, not in powers. For those who keep up with my work, you will know what I'm talking about.

I AM going to have Ven fight people, just please be patient with me. As of right now, I am strategically picking who I want to fight, and I am not ashamed to admit that. I have no problem admitting my faults or embarrassing myself when it needs to be done, which is why I am putting it out there. We all have to start somewhere and now that you guys know my story, hopefully you can understand. Amazing writers like Zauby, Feral Nova, Sha, and Impero, can whoop my booty without even breaking a sweat, not ashamed to admit that. BTW: If we're all doing an RP and the RP requires that I fight Sha even though I am not ready, I will fight her for the sake of the story. But if I have a choice, I will continue growing and picking off my targets, until I am confident enough.

Anyway I hope you guys understand. I am not one to disrespect or seek problems, unless someone is trying to take advantage of me. I like to believe that I am easy to work with and that I give everyone a chance to RP with me. If you guys have a personal problem with me or want to give me advice, please don't shy away from doing so. For those that know me, you know I don't get offended easily. I am very open to constructive criticism when done so politely. FYI: I used my phone when writing this, sorry for the grammar and errors