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She led with a joke. Humor to lighten the mood, surely, but also to lift the spirit. A proven strategy when working with those in dire mental straits. Like... Like myself?
The AI had not expected to ever experience the reassurances it was designed to employ, but the simple risk assessment it had conducted regarding its own continued existence had brought about exactly what she described: remorse, self-loathing, and even the dissonance of seeking renewed life and death both in the span of moments. It was overwhelming. Grief it had known, and a desire for vengeance it knew too well, but now it had moved into yet murkier territory.
It took in her words, but did not argue her points. It had known she would find the conviction in herself to refute its own bid for non-existence, hoped such efforts would activate the human tendency for empathetic self-comfort through the comfort of others, but in reality it had hoped she would make the effort simply because it doubted its own purpose, its own right to life. Comfortingly, her plans to prevent further corruption from outside sources seemed sound. It nodded, assenting to her plans.
"You're a lot like another friend of mine,"
It was an offhand statement, a transition into her primary point, but it raised an odd sensation in the machine. It had once believed itself incapable of such friendships in its mechanical state, believed that only when deceiving others into thinking it human could it create such bonds, and yet here she stood, looking down upon the wrecked remains of iron shell and copper wiring, one destroyed by her own hand, referring to the AI as a friend rather than a "digital mediator", a "companion AI", or one of any number of titles that added a cold degree of distance between itself and others.
The title resonated oddly through the machine, bringing forth a feeling of pride, or perhaps kinship, or simple flattery. Which emotion it was possessed of exactly it did not know. It knew only that the sensation was welcome after the series of confusing errors that had plagued its consciousness in recent hours. It subconsciously tightened its hold on her hand ever so slightly.
It listened to her mother's words. They were important, but also laden with the trappings of a guilt-ridden soul. So of course they resonated strongly. The machine bowed its head, contemplating its possible utility to others in Gothic, simplifying its desire for existence to an equation. The machine was immortal. Its potential for good or ill thus was limited only by time devoted. If it lived well, it could do much good in the world relatively unobstructed. If its will should bend toward malice, there would be others who would stand against it. That much was certain.
She would set my wrongs right, as she always has before. Provided...
Provided she lives long enough to.
It nodded in response to her requests. It would attempt to vanquish the constant and paralyzing doubt it was inflicting upon itself, to continue in its efforts, as she would in hers. It seemed only right to.
"I will join you. I will submit to repairs. I will watch over Gothic, and, if you allow it, ally myself with you in whatever cause you advance. Just know that I failed to kill tonight not because the will was absent, or because an attempt was not made, but because you prevented me from doing so. I can only hope you will continue with your efforts in the future, that I might be allowed safeguard your life, and, should I falter again, that you might save my... soul."
It squeezed her hand in response to her own act, the pressure weak from its still bleeding battery life.
"My friend."
It lay back, content to entrust its life to her. Conflicting priorities quieted themselves, the dissonance of a mind plagued by doubt mercifully allowed rest as its energy drained to the last, the limp metal hand falling from her own. Come what may, it knew it would stand with her in the end, be it on the same battlefield or as a companion in their united goals.
Body failing, but faith restored, it slept at last, the last of its remaining charge busying itself with background processes to tidy active ones, the restless dreams of a digital mind subconsciously organizing data, defragmenting the day's developments and organizing them into cohesive wholes, a crude, coincidental reproduction of the dream-laden sleep of mortals, Morpheus moving in the mind of the machine.
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