The internet, it appears. I can tell, because if my computer goes down and it needs to be repaired for a couple of days or if a storm comes and knocks the internet offline, I start to get anxious and being consumed with a time when I'd have it back.
And to think that once upon a time, I avoided computers and the internet as long as I could; but, I think this might have been more of my precognitive abilities than an actual fear that I didn't fully understand how to interpret properly at the time, as, when I did eventually get online, my career as a student would be nearly forever ruined by internet porn, when, at the time I was apprehensive about the internet, I was an honor student and had such great self-discipline and organizational skills that I have never seemed to have been able to achieve again; but, as I'd suggested in other places, following a schedule is helping to rehabilitate and retrain me; also, being forced to follow a schedule by the circumstances where I was living has, at times, served to rehabilitate me in short spells; but, just never was able to obtain the gold standard of self-discipline and organization that I once had before the internet and my precognitive abilities were right on (e.g. but, than, there was also a gold standard within this gold standard that I would be on a roller coaster to obtain and regain all of the time); and, I always have them but often misinterpret my apprehension, when I get them, also to my detriment; just fortunately, they're often times minor.
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